What A Ride

Ok, these last few months have been something out of a movie for me.  My two kids who were the least resistant got caught up in finding out where they came from.  That can be good, which I have experienced, or that can be not so good.  It seemed like I was on a roller coaster, which I hate by the way, and I could not get off.  I was facing push back behavior I was unprepared for, not expecting to the point if affected my health.

But there I was, in the midst of stuff, stuff I didn't ask for or expect.  It all came out of kindness.   Kindness to the birth family, and compassion.  Well I have learned that some of us know kindness and compassion and others don't.  Some have never experienced these emotions, and are caught up in the thought that, one, they deserve that, and two, they are not even going to think about giving that.  Nothing can resolve these two stand offs.  I resolved that I could not change my kids thoughts, or the situation they were in, but I could still have kindness and compassion, with boundaries.

It lead me to a place where I wanted to know more, to be able to understand my thoughts, why I wanted to reach out to others, and why even when I was betrayed, abused and not understood, I still wanted to find the answer how to reach people who could not understand.

I have understood for a really long time that I have given my life for others, twelve children, four out of my womb, and eight out of my heart, nine grandchildren and countless foster children, but one special one, Isaiah, who we rescued from Liberia.  Thank God for that!  I didn't even know that this horrible disease would affect that country but God did, and He called my name, put the desire in my heart, and we rescued him.  It was a long, seemingly fruitless journey, but he is alive, has a life, and a freedom to be who he wants to be.

So, I will continue this blog about all of my children and their adventures, but I would like you to know I will be starting a new blog.  One about my journey as a life coach, specializing in women who think they are too old to begin something new, or just to BE who they are.  That does not mean I will not be available to  people who do not know how to cope with that new foster child, an autisic child, a lost child, or a family who cannot get it together.

I am so excited about my new journey, and my new website, not available yet, but I will tell you when it is.  If any of this applies to you, please let me know.  I am looking to coach right now for free.